I heard a country song once
That went something like
'Be thankful for unanswered prayers'
And never has that been more present for me
Than, now, driving down Hwy 58
Watching the lakes of purple Camas flowers
The blue sky stretched all around
Never have I been more grateful
For unanswered prayers
Especially for the prayer
When every word was death
The prayer to rip myself from this world
From the pain
From the deep destruction inside my own soul
To be set free
To leave behind every torture
and every pain
I thank all the Gods
For wrapping me up in their love
For hearing my prayer and crying over my soul
Gently neglecting to fulfill
my request
Because they had the wisdom
of lakes of Camas flowers
They had the knowledge
of Circles of Tribes surrounding me
and lifting me up out of despair
They saw my healing
They saw my contribution
Never have I been more grateful
for unanswered prayers
Than I am now,
For the unanswered prayer of my own death.
I don't ask for things like that anymore
When I pray,
I reach my hands to the sky
and I say THANK YOU
Thank you for the beauty and the life and the joy
But thank you, too,
For the challenges and the pain
Thank you for this opportunity to be human
For this opportunity to connect
With *all* that is alive
and all that has energy
I don't seek for Gods and Goddesses
To answer my requests
I know that my soul is my own God
And that I can answer my own prayers
I am powerful!
I am beautiful!
I will continue to plumb my own depths
Write the pages of my Bible on my own soul
And share it with the world
Hoping, praying,
Praying to myself and my Higher God,
That those being around me will do the same
To write on their own pages
On their own souls
So that we can raise our voices
Like a choir in our own church
So that we can become the chorus of Gods and Goddesses
that hold the wisdom
The wisdom to not answer the prayers
that get sent into our depths
The prayers for death
The prayers for greed
The prayers for power
May we all be wise
May we all be present
May we all be One
Answering our own prayers
Of gratitude and blessings